to be with other guys is more

fun?

i just went for a picnic... with afew friends..one of them is a single guy..hey..this is not saying i wanted him or something..just pondering... kay... i have a boyfriend tho hes so far away.... that i miss the company...i totally understand why he tried to cheat on me once... long story..another day... kay?
anyway... it made me think..i like to think... erm.. i had fun with this guy..because...i was not trying to hit on him.. i was able to relax.show myself..not care watever anyone else think...ironically..we can only do this when we have someone in our life... it made me feel i dont know... how i look in front of this guy coz i am not hitting on him..yeah yeah i know we should be ourselves when we are with a loved one... but at a certain point..u wanna impress him rite? so u wouldnt normally show the 'bad' part of u to him.. dont lie..at some point we all do that... so... my pondering is... no wonder some people are attracted to attached people... they are more relaxed..more confident... well the main reason they are more confident is because they know they are wanted by someone...so the desperate urge to find partners...impress them are non existent...this way..they are more relaxed to show themselves..have fun...be silly..without worrying..oh.. i must look soo stupid in front of this person... or something...
so... will u have more fun in flirting? or in love?